27= INTERESTING YEAR....

i can't believe it. i am 27 years old. i know i am not old but i am no spring chicken either. it's kinda ironic how life is turning out...sometimes you can't but just laugh at it. i think if one doesn't laugh, the reality of it might be too painful to deal with. this year will be my year...a quart of century has past and i am determined to not repeat the past. here goes nothing...

Red Pepper Aioli

1 jar of roasted red peppers
Mayo
Dijon Mustard
Garlic
Olive oil
Splash of lemon juice
Salt

Make sure the red peppers are as dry as possible. Put them into food processor and slowly add enough olive oil to get a thick paste. Combine mayor to get a light pink color. Add mustard for kick and I would say about 2 tablespoons of garlic. Adjust garlic to your liking. The salt is needed to open up the flavors and can be added as the peppers are being chopped. Remember to taste and adjust it to you palate. Dried red pepper flakes can be added if you like more heat. Make note of adjustments.

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Fairy Tale of Today

I am obviously the princess. The part of the prince are in general can all be of the usual flavor...no surprise there. I keep saying I am trying to move on and find something new for my palate but I am epically failing. Maybe I should just accept it..I digress. It's the usual story. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl start shaking and moving...pretty much being that couple on the dance floor. And by that couple I mean the one that is providing entertainment for the whole venue. They are the ones you are judging partly you wish you could be as I don't give a "f" about what other people think; the other because you wonder how they can't control their hormones. After the show, boy and girl go their merry ways. They find a new partner the next weekend and everyone lives happily after.

You might read this and feel pity for yours truly. Maybe..all I can say is I am having fun and I get some stories out of it. I don't dislike myself at the end of the night and that's important. I do sometimes wonder if I will find someone that actually makes it into the AM and this where most would tell me I am looking for them in the wrong places and I need to be more open. I get it, I do. I think I will actually start but until Prince Charming comes along Prince of Tonight will suffice.

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5 AM thoughts...

First of all, still why I am up at 5 am. It's kind of the ass crack of dawn...at least on a holiday. I also realized I haven't really written anything in awhile. The men portion of my adventures have been slow and steady. It all has been pretty typical...none that actually made it to the AM. I guess sometimes it is just better that way.

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Roller Coaster

This roller coaster that I am on is making me quite queasy. There times where its a nice and calm and there are days where I feel like I am barely holding on. I want adventures but I think I am just getting tired or looking for it. If I was really honest with myself...maybe I am just trying to fill the hole with a temporary solution. I sometimes wonder when is enough enough. I know I say it everyday..its like I am crying out wolf and I am pretty sure no one believes me anymore. I am not sure I believe myself either. I need to find a permanent solution. I am not sure how much further I need to go before I really go for it.

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SURPRISE!

So...I guess it's that time of the year where one reflects on everything. I honestly usually avoid this because it forces me to take a good look at things I put in a box and hide in my closet. Sometimes, however things find you whether you want them to or not....I know I have said this many times and I wonder when will I finally get it. Things may get hidden or you may forget about them but sooner or later you will have to face them. It hit me today while I was watching a movie, Bridesmaid. Who knew, life would just smack me with the facts. I think it was trying to get my attention but I kept ignoring the messages. It came loud and clear. I guess I sometimes just need the message to be transmitted to me by a bullhorn. I GET IT. I really do.

This Tuesday is my boards exam and I actually have a good feeling about it. I feel a lot more confident...there is a part of me that is thinking I am being too optimistic but I am trying to shut here up. I guess who needs that part of me when reality is more than happy to take that role. I am going to listen to the part that believes in happy endings and that dreams do come true.

The next chapter is going to start soon. I can feel it. I imagine someone reading the story of my life, they would be about done with this book and picking up the sequel. The sequel is going to be good. I am determined to making it happen. I am not saying there won't be mistakes...let's not kid myself. It is me after all but I am done with being treated like a spare tire. I am not going to apologize for my choices. I have this one shot and I am going to do it my way. So either jump in and hold on or move out of my way. I am not slowing down...I actually like the brakes are broken so HERE I COME!!!!!

SO...

Tonight was one of those nights where I will just look back and smile. I had a great meal with friends I haven't seen in forever and it was so much fun to catch up. I am on this "thing" that goes on to end of June and I can't wait until it's over. It was a nice break. I will be back on the wagon tomorrow. I just have to say the food was good and I love the company. There were definitely highlights to our meal and some not so high points but when you aim for the moon, no matter what you are among the stars. life really has a funny way of turning out. i am about to start the next big chapter and closing this one on tuesday. i feel good about it and maybe i shouldn't be so optimistic but i can't help it. for this moment, i am happy. reality will come soon enough but right now at this moment, i am happy. the future is so bright and i have so many options...it really is nice to not lead my life as a reaction to other people's choices. it's my turn and there's no looking back. I AM READY...no matter what world, bring it on!